(1) Without a girlfriend

My girlfriend, partner, and maybe future wife have left me. She took all lamp shades with her. I don’t know why.

It’s possible that we have broken up. But then again, I don’t know. The situation is new to me, so I don’t know what to believe or think. Not even what to feel. I don’t have a manual for the feelings I’m now having. I am new in that neighbourhood. I am new everywhere. And all I can know for certain is that she’s not here. I’m here, but she’s somewhere else.

I can’t eliminate that she’s out shopping for food, because the larder is almost empty. Although it hasn’t taken 2 days before. Besides she doesn’t answer her cell phone. Then of course we have the lamp shade thing.

It could be that she is in a very dark place.

It’s very dark in the winters. Maybe it's winter were she is.